graduation goggles

Salamualaikum and Ahoy!

For those who doesn't know, Graduation Goggles is a term used to describe the nostalgic feeling one has about a time or someone in their life when it is about to end, even if the time was completely miserable. If you're a How I Met Your Mother fan, you'll know what I'm talking about.

I am currently having Graduation Goggles. It all started when I received an offer that I never anticipated. When I received that offer, I'm still working in a place where I am now. The first thing to note is that I have been waiting for quite a while for the offer to come, but since it has been months, I decided to move on and look for another job, since it has been a waste of time waiting, and I've run out of cash....plus another reason in which I will not mention about it here.

People say you'll know a place is suitable for you when you wake up not with a miserable feeling that a new day has come, like you don't feel like leaving, or looking for another place for a job. That is how my current office is. I love it here. Sure, it's not a posh place, where there's a reception area and fancy, executive signboards and floors of departments, but it's friendly. I can totally see myself working here for quite some years. Mind that I do not intend to practice for life, but working in this current place, I might change my mind. The people are helpful, friendly and there's not much office politics going around. Well, if you're working in a place where there's only 11 people, you might as well forget about the idea of playing politics, because it seems to be a waste of time and people don't really give a damn.

The main thing I love it here is that I am able to learn. The boss I'm working with, he's willing to teach and explain on things that I don't know. Even if I already know, he explains it more to make sure I remember and really understands the whole picture. Of course, he makes me go to many court cases, which is pretty tiring, considering the amount of work and energy you put on, but I don't mind doing it because I can learn from it. Yup, he's a good boss indeed. Of course he has his shortcomings, but why look into that, eh?

So when I received that offer, I know that it is one offer that I just cannot refuse. It's not everyday you receive the opportunity. Many applied, and only some are selected. It's like being offered to go to Hogwarts. Will you refuse to go to Hogwarts? Or getting the chance to be the Doctor's companion. I'm sure as hell won't miss that for the world! Okay, I'm exaggerating. The offer is not exactly so exciting, I'm just trying to make my point.

At the same time, I hate leaving this office. Hence the Graduation Goggles. Only in this situation, I do not hate the place. And throughout working here, I never have the intention to get out from here or to switch jobs. Compared to the previous one, everyday was like forced labour. I feel very guilty upon informing my boss of my decision. I cause burden and trouble to him and the whole office, since it is a short notice thing. I thought long and hard of this decision. It's a freaking dilemma! Of course people around me urge me to accept it, but at the same time, I'm not sure if this is what's best. I mean, I already found a place I love working at, why do I want to leave? What if the new place is worse than the other place I've been? Am I willing to take the risk? After thinking. considering and Istikharah for some nights, I decide that this is best. I did mention that I do not intend to practice for long, perhaps this opportunity will allow me to look into other scope of jobs that might one day be the ideal job for me. Insya Allah.

It is going to be difficult to leave this nice office. With its nice people and by far the nicest boss, but I have to make decisions for what's best for me. Well, I hope this will be the best for me. And believe me, if there's ever a chance  in future to return and work in this office, there's no doubt that I will accept it.

Till next time.