Priorities

I notice that as I grow older, I miss the past even more. Perhaps it is because of the amount of stress and workload that I have to face everyday, it makes me want to escape to a carefree place, with nobody around telling me what to do, and have a quiet and peaceful moment alone, as I watch all the musicals and old movies that I love. At this point of time, W.B.Yeats' The Lake Isle of Innisfree relates so much to me.

With all that's happening around, I suddenly have this thought about how much our priorities have changed throughout our lives. We all have different priorities, and normally these priorities vary according to individuals and as we grow up.

I still remember back in school days (the moments I miss most!), we didn't really have that much priority. At most we only had two priorities to our family and to our studies. We were to study and obtained good grades, so we can proceed to the next level of the education system. Then we reached the point that the priorities are pretty much the same, but they carry heavier burden. If before we studied just to get admitted into a university, now we have to study to get admitted to a company, a firm or a hospital. This is the important stage because without a job, how are we going to support ourselves, and also the family. Surely we don't want to let our parents to keep on paying our loans and the bills by themselves. What's the use of being a child if you can't help your parents, right? Maybe. Haha...

Then, comes the stage in most of us where a new person appears. Yes; love, amour, cinta, ai, or whatever you choose to call it. It automatically creates a new priority. If before there's only family and studies, and friends (sorry, forgot to mention it earlier), now there's a new person in your life, that managed to make your life more meaningful than before. When this happens,some will face this some sort of a dilemma on who matters more? Of course family will always be the top priority. Friends or lover? To the guys, they have this 'bros before hos' principle, frankly, when a man loves a woman (all hail Michael Bolton! lol!) she will be the only one he cares about. And what about the girls? well, honestly, between friends and lover, majority of girls will choose the latter. It is in the nature of a lady that she likes attention and affection, and the lover gives her more of that compared to friends. And I'm talking about a committed relationship, ladies and gentlemen. Not some summer fling (Grease!) or a casual relationship, not amounting to marriage and family.

Then, as we move on, we go to work, find the perfect person, get married and blessed with beautiful children. A happy family. And so priorities change again. Now that you have another family, plus with work and friends, one can never be able to keep them all together fairly. One has to go. Let go as in not forgetting altogether, but less attention and time for them. In most cases, friends. In some cases, the parents, and in other cases, the very own family.

I might change my mind, but at the moment, family and career is my top priority. Third in line would be friends, because when I have things I can't share with my family and colleagues, it's friends that I turn to. Only they know the key and the way to tolerate my craziness, goofiness and my meltdown. What about husband? That I leave to the Almighty. It's not that I have given up on this. It's just that I know myself more than I was before. Before, most of the decisions are made based on what people want me to do. But I've come to eliminate that issue bit by bit. I know I'm not prepared, and God knows better and much earlier about that fact. Perhaps God is giving me the time and opportunity for me to discover myself, for me to completely come out from my shell, and to blossom with confidence and positivity. Only when I truly love and embrace myself, I can accept other people. Of course, past experience can be very bitter and hurtful to remember. But that is where the life lessons are. And I have this ridiculous trust issues, making it difficult for me to get to know a new person.

So, right now, work and education is all that matters. I want to settle my study loans, my car loan, and lessen the financial burden of my family. And when I've achieved that, I want to fly further overseas, to see the world, and to further my studies. Why? Because I do not want to be a lawyer. I have a different passion, and I want to try and see how far I can take this passion of mine and make a living out of it. All this sounds so ideal to be a reality, but it doesn't hurt to dream. I hope at least I get one dream achieved; to repay my mother and my father for all the sacrifices they've made for me and to see my siblings have a successful, blessed life.

Who's Afraid of the Big Bad Wolf?

Assalamualaikum and ahoy!

Another fact you should know about me. I love books. Books and I have a very good relationship from the first time I know how to read and turn the page. If I'm not splurging my money with food or skincare, it would be books. Why books? Because when I read it, it takes me to a different place, where I can imagine in any way I want. If anybody wishes to give me a present, get me a book and I am already very happy. If a guy wants to try and impress me or win my heart, it's either a book or food.

Of course, flowers are a lovely, sweet gift, but it doesn't last long. A book will always be available and will always provide the peace and helps to reduce the stress. Same goes to food. Food always makes you feel better.

So when there was a Big Bad Wolf book sale, I simply couldn't resist and obviously I just have to go. Books sold at a ridiculously cheap and affordable price, who would miss it for the world?

It was held at MIECC, and I took the public transport to get there. It was a wonderful trip with my friends. I went there 3 times, and everytime I will come home with bags full of books. Even when I was waiting in line during the preview day, the excitement was already there, when you caught the smell of those books waiting to be grabbed.

Maybe some will say it's a waste for spending so much money on books. But I beg to differ. Books will always have a value. And it doesn't mean that you have to finish reading the book all at once. Some of the books are really hard to find, and when you get the chance to have the book, and for a really affordable price, it will be foolish to say 'no'. Plus, you can use it for tax reduction! =)

Voila! Me books! All mineeeeee!!! and there's The Tale of Beadle The Bard!! 

 All these for less than RM300! Worth worth and super worth it! There's one book missing; My Natural History, The Animal Kingdom and How It Shaped Me by Simon Barnes. A wonderful book! That book is in my handbag. I make it a habit for me to have a book with me everywhere I go. At least I have something to do while waiting.

I'm looking forward to the next Big Bad Wolf sale! hopefully the location and the books will be just as awesome and convenient as this one. All hail the big bad wolf! lol!

Oh Hello, I didn't see you there.

This blog is a new beginning in the life of this bespectacled, skinny, pessimistic girl. Those who know me really well are well informed that I have another blog, in which I wrote about almost everything; advises, motivations, anger, hatred, reviews, awesomeness, even loads of crap. Hardly any followers, and I like to keep it that way, since I consider a blog as a virtual diary with endless pages, and I don't have to strain my hands from writing.

But this blog is not a subsequent to the previous one. It's a fresh blog, in which I hope to make it more optimistic, to write down more useful information or musings rather than emotional, heart breaking, depressing events. Believe me, I'm an emotional person. I just choose not to show it, unless to those who are close to my heart. Ha!!

So, here goes.

And oh, fondest greetings and welcome!